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I just ate dinner. A 60z steak with green beans and a small baked potato. I finished it about 30 minutes ago and I still feel like I could eat a damn horse. It’s a bit annoying.

This month has been seriously crazy. Work has been hectic…being all over the place for holiday events (which i have at least 3 more to attend). My calendar has been extremely full. And I just got back from a week on vacation with my family.  I finally got a look at the scale yesterday.  I gained 5lbs…It sucks of course I had a pretty good idea that I had a gain because with all this holiday crap going on and I LOVE holiday food like most people. In many respects I will be happy when the holiday mess is over so I can focus on eating and going to the gym. So far this week I have done quite well with eating and working out. I’ve missed the gym. One of my coworkers now goes to my gym. It’s a good and bad thing. For one he’s attractive and thin and fun to be around but at the same time I don’t like being around people I know at the gym being as self conscious as I am. I’ll just have to try and look at him like competition. That seems to help me. My goals are still going to be 8-10lbs a month which is reasonable. I really did feel good to get in the gym and sweat and get my heart pumping. I will get my good habits back. I did it before I can do it again. I’ll get to those goals. I hope everyone else is managing well through the holidays.

I can’t remember if I posted it here but back in July I broke my ribs. I took about two months off from working out to let things heal. I figured starting in October I could start easing back into my routine. Here it is half way through November already and I have made ZERO progress. I always have an excuse not to go to the gym or not eat right. I am having the hardest time finding my motivation again. Everything used to be routine and fairly easy to keep up with.  Now there’s always something else I’d rather being doing. I know I need to get back on track because I have a long way to go. But, I just can’t seem to do it and I don’t know how to fix it.  Some will just say you go to the gym no questions ask, you just do it. I know that but as most of us here know it’s not that easy. What does everyone else do when they get in that motivational slump?  I know I need to start with reevaluation.

I am down 1lb for all of last week. I would like to have more but I look at it this way. A loss is a loss.  The week started out really good but then mid way through the week I let stress get to me. I know I’m a stress eater. My car broke down. It’s one of the things I fear most because I have had many car troubles over the years and without my car I can’t do anything. Getting the car fixed put a nice dent in my budget and I’m already strapped as it is. Between that and guy troubles I had a rough end to the week. Then we had the Halloween party with absolutely nothing healthy and lots of alcohol. But a pound is a pound and I’ll take it.

I did have something good happen yesterday. I was expecting a lazy Sunday morning to recover from the Halloween party.  While sitting on the couch watching Netflix on my XBox one of my ex’s came online. He sent me a message to say good morning. A little of the back story first…we dated at the beginning of the year but in July stopped seeing each other because of dealing with a lot of issues from our past relationships. Basically things between us progressed for us way too quick.  We were very good together, comfortable with each other, and had a lot in common. In the past we both had been through some very ugly crap.  Our baggage got in the way for both of us. Anyway, over the months we stayed in contact keeping tabs on each other and what we are up to. Anything from playing xbox live to a good morning here or there, and even him calling me when he needed one of my pep talks for what ever was stressing him at the time. Almost forgot to mention when we were together we were work out buddies. We kept each other motivated to work out.

Back to Sunday…he sent me a message on XBox to say good morning…odd thing was I had just been thinking about him (something video game related lol) We switched to talking through text. I still don’t know why but I asked if he wanted to come over, within the hour he was at my door. We spent about three hours talking. We talked about the past and present. We have always been very open with each other about everything.  Getting to the end of the story we have decided to start seeing each other again. It’s going to go much slower this time. I even told him it will be very casual. I’m not ready for commitment yet and neither is he.  So…we’ll see what happens.

Hope everyone is having a good start to their week.

Things have gone pretty well. I’ve stuck to my healthy eating and managed to work out every day except Tuesday. I usually have my juice for breakfast. Then something with protein for a snack, fruit and veg for lunch and dinner. Today I did have a cream cheese roll. But I’m not going to deprive myself of all things that aren’t good for me. Once in a while I am going to eat bad things. I stay away from soda’s since they give me major sweet cravings after for the next couple days. So I drink mostly just my juice, water, and milk. Two more days this week. Hopefully I’ll have some progress come Sunday. Hope everyone is doing well.

So I’m back after having taken a break for about four months. It’s time to get my focus back.  I have been super busy between my work schedule and social life. I let everything take over again.  I am glad to say all the while I was away from here I did manage to stay within the same few pounds. I’m basically picking up where I left off.  Healthy eating and exercise are well under way. I have added juice to my diet. Not the kind you buy at the store. It’s the fruit/veg juice I make myself with my juicer. If anyone has any good recipes for juice please share. I hope everyone out there is doing well.

Disregard previous post. I deleted the last blog entry…after a little more digging and my brain slowly making connections and finally reading Dr.Marks page…as you can see BS is still here. Some days I wonder how I manage to make it this far in life. lol. But I still have the account on SparkPeople…just in case.

Yep went looking for one. Hit every place in the mall even Lane Bryant and couldn’t find one that fit right. Of course LB only had 5 suits. And I mean 5 not 5 styles with multiples of them…just 5. Not sure what the deal was there. Found plenty in the various stores that fit the stomach properly and everywhere else EXCEPT, as always, the boobs. They never fit in anything. Don’t get me wrong I love my boobs most of the time. But it can be a real bitch finding tops to fit them in. I prefer halter tops for swimsuits they just hold them up better than regular tops. And those damn built in bras are virtually useless. The only ones I can find most of the time that fit the boobs are, no offense, old lady swim suits. I have no other way to describe them. But you know what i mean the hideous flower patterns with the big ugly skirt on them. I’m 27 and sure as hell not wearing one of those. But I did manage to find one at target of all places. It was actually maternity…doesn’t look like it though cute black halter with a pink/purple design on it and so it also fits a little looser in the stomach area which is nice.  And it holds the girls up rather nicely. Oh and it’s the tankini kind, not  a one piece.

It was $24. Swimsuits are so expensive. In my looking I saw one suit that was $98 just for the top. Who pays those kind of prices?? Not me. I had to find something for my tubing trip this weekend and then my trip to Florida next month. None of my other suits fit anymore.

Went to the gym today…didn’t get to go last night. I worked a double but I also had a head ache and back ache for some reason. All was gone today so I was able to get a good work out in then all the walking around and wrestling to get into swimsuits i think should count as exercise.

Hop every one is doing well.

Actually peanuts are pretty good for you. Actually pretty much all nuts are (although peanuts are closer related to beans than nuts but whatever). I can’t stop eating them.  Walmart also has these nut blends…one called Indulgent Mix…So EFFFING good. Although bad for you because of the chocolate and butterscotch chips in it.  I used to not care for nuts so I can’t really explain the new found love for them. I have done pretty well with eating lately just not with working out.  Really have to get my act together. I would like at least another 10lbs gone by vacation in July which shouldn’t  be an issue. Vacation is July 21st. Hope everyone else is doing well.

I’ve been floating around in here today reading blogs. Even though I don’t post often these days I still check in and see what others are up to. I have been losing and am working on 15lbs by the 15th of next month. Tough goal set by a friend but it gives me a challenge. I’ll for sure give a final update on how much I lose by then. I’ll be taking a trip to Florida in July for some beach time so I’m working hard. I’m still over 200lbs so I’m not going to have that bikini body or anything but it will feel good to be confident in the fact I am getting smaller.  In this journey so far I have gone from size 22 to now in a 16 and still going down.  I bought a dress and today was the first time I wore it. It felt weird at first because I haven’t worn a dress in god only knows how long. In fact I don’t even own another one. It felt good to finally look and feel nice. It’s just a simple summer dress but I love that the work is paying off..

Anyway, the original purpose for this post. I was reading some blogs and one I read about size zero not being a size made me think of this one web site.

http://www.mybodygallery.com/index.html

It’s a website of user submitted pictures of women and what size and weight they are so you can see the size of REAL women and not celebrities. It’s interesting to see people in the same size size range, or height or weight. I suggest checking it out and I think it could also help people see what healthy and unhealthy bodies look like at different weights.